Capture the Moment

So...this week I decided to have Rylee's pictures taken. My friend Katie Wells did them & she always does such an awesome job.

I had planned on doing some 18 month pictures and then after everthing happened, I was going back and forth about it- I didn't know if Rylee would feel up to it, didn't know how important it was to focus so much on the "before", etc.

Then this week came & as I've been noticing Rylee's hair thinning more and more each day, I started feeling the importance of NOW. So I called Katie right then to see if she could do them that day. I was much more emotional than I had anticipated I would be. I could barely get through the call. It's just that you always think you have all of this time. If not today, tomorrow, if not this week, next. And then something like this happens and it hits you like a ton of bricks that next week might be too late. I wasn't sure what another round of chemo would bring. And I suppose I wasn't quite ready to face that it might already be time.

I know I'm a little biased, but I think she is a doll. I'm so glad that I decided to capture this moment. She is so precious to me. No matter what happens- she will always be this beautiful to us. I ran across this quote recently, it says "All you have to do is look straight and see the road. And when you see it, don't sit looking at it- walk."(Ayn Rand). It just helped me realize that it is what it is. I don't have to be afraid of it or dwell on it or try to deny it, I just need to go forward, face it and try to gain something from the experience.

To see more pictures, go to http://katieportraits.blogspot.com/. After watching how busy Rylee is during the shoot, I'm always amazed that she can get such cute pictures.